Emotions running high

* I had meant to post this yesterday *

The school year is coming to an end and I have been through a field of emotions today. It all started with my drive into work and being excited I was going to be done. Even more so when in the first 10minutes of being there I have boys beating each other up and having a very difficult time diffusing the situation. After school I see a fee posts of friends that talk about their daughters graduating and how far they have come and grown up. Started feeling like I am on the fast track for that and it makes me feel sad and overwhelmed! Thinking of how grace is only 5 years away is crazy and it will be here in a flash. Later that evening I run her to a last minute event she has to be at and find myself grumbling that I have to run her. However, as I drop her off I pull away and think about how I only have a short amount of time to have this time with her and how some of our best moments and conversation are in the car together. What am I going to do with out that time??  

This evening I see a post on Facebook from a neighbor/friend who has a son that is autistic and goes to the school I work at. She tells about how sad Parker is that it is the last day of school and he is so sad because he has so many friends at school and he won't see them again for a long time and will miss them. She then proceeds to say that he has a lot of friends at school but never gets a call from them to play outside of school. This makes me so sad for him. I love Parker, he is one of my favorite students and the most polite and well mannered kid at school. This makes me think about my job and what I will miss if I don't return. The wonderful students and all the fun times we have had! It's sad that the difficult students so over shadow the good ones. Unfortunately with the nature of the job I spend most of my time with the difficult ones and it doesn't make for an enjoyable time. Anyhow, Parker made me think of the good ones and how my job is so bitter sweet. 

The emotions always get me this time of the year as I look back and see how the kids have grown and how fast time passes by. Just hoping the much cherished summertime slows just a little bit to have some time to stop and smell the roses!